I'm Sorry I Lied...

 

I'm sorry I lied that I was happy when deep down I didn't know how that felt. I didn't understand what it was.

I'm sorry I lied that I liked you when all I wanted was sex.

I'm sorry I pretended to be okay with you not showing up when deep down I wanted to scream at you, call you out and express my disappointment. I didn't tell you because I cared about your feelings.

I'm sorry I lied that I was okay and fine but deep down I was spiraling into a dark hole.

I'm sorry I fooled you with my beautiful smile when deep inside I didn't know what I was smiling about.

I'm sorry I lied that I was okay with the clothes you gave me. I just didn't have the courage to say 'No'.

I'm sorry I lied that I enjoyed sex with you but deep down inside I knew I wanted more and better.

I'm sorry I lied that the reason I left you was because I didn't love you anymore. The truth is I was sexually attracted to your brother who had a better chiseled body. I couldn't imagine how it would break your fragile heart if I slept with him.

I'm sorry I lied that I was okay with the joke when deep down I was scared to express my disdain.

I'm sorry I lied that I didn't need help while smiling yet I was hoping from one man's bed to another so that I could get a place to sleep and food to eat.

I'm sorry I lied that I was fine with compromising my needs and prioritising your interest when all I wanted to say was 'NO'.

By Anonymous.

#personalhealing #healing